You lie to me how many times then you have the nerve to say I love you?
You push me away until I hate myself altogether then you ask me my ring size?
You take advantage of me then you tell me sex scares you, though we almost [[now never will]] go all the way?
Everyone loves you.
"He's such a sweet guy."
"They're perfect for eachother."
"He's so good to her."
It's all I can do not no scream, "shut the fuck up!"
Oh please, they don't know what they're talking about.
They don't see you whe it's just you and I.
They don't see what you do to me.
Not that anyone fuckin cares anyway.
I'll be stupidly honest, no one fully comprehends my personality.
I'd just rather people not so I'll purposly mis-explain myself.
So stop trying to be the one that "gets me" when I don't even want you in my life.
Wasn't it you that told me that if I was going to move then you weren't going to promise that we'd stay together because you didn't want to make a promise that you couldn't keep.
Then after less then a week of you saying that, why the hell would you think I'd want to marry you?
You've only torn my heart out a countless times without even trying. Or that's what you made it look like. You make everything about you by pretending to make it about everyone else.
You asked me if I'd say yes if you asked. I didn't know what to say so I said yes. What? I couldn't tear your world apart. Your heart seemed so set on it. I didn't want to hurt you the same way you've hurt me so... many.. times...
You know we're not meant to be together. I tried to tell you that last night but I can hardly handle my own devistations. Why make another heart suffer? A real smile hasn't crossed my face for over a year. I'm the biggest fake you'll ever know. If you haven't figured that out now then what makes you think that you'll be able to see it down the road.
I love you but this just can't work.
How do you expect to be with me when you can't see how I really feel.
I don't think you get it. I'm just waiting for you to screw up big just so I can break up with you. I'm sorry if you find that harsh but I'd rather be alone then be afraid of your reactionas 24-7. That's probably something else you don't see. Everytime I'm with you I'm in constent fear that you'll soon resent me for something or other. Case and point, when you and I hungout for the first time before we went out. I thought by the end of the day your intrests in me would be gone. My intent was to hangout with you, act retarded, then be on with my life because your couriousity wasn't intrigued anymore. But then you did something that threw me off big, you likeness for me increased. I didn't know how to handle that so I just went with the flow and turned into another stupid girl and fell for you... Hard.
Donnie, I love you more then anything but this isn't fun anymore. I'm always terrified and/or in pain when it comes to you. I'm going to hurt you now.

I want to break up... Forever.
[[Please Love Her]]